Just been to church. We have this most amazing event called Space, once a month. A contemplative hour of, well.. space to think, pray, float (metaphorically) with music, visuals etc. The theme of tonight was "Journey". Well its been quite a sensational journey for us this year and my mind was filled with memories from along the way.
Its 4 months since i was lying prone, reliant on morphine, with space-age leggings on that inflated from my ankles to my knees (to avoid thromboses developing). I couldn't walk, breathing was an agonising ordeal, i was nil by mouth and the minutes were dragged out over what seemed like mini-eternities. How different that is to now. Its a testament to how amazing the body is at adapting/recovering.
And its also a testament to Claudia and the many friends and family members who have been travelling with me. But the biggest shout goes out to God, who has been an awesome companion in both the best times and the worst. Thinking back, it was as if the line in Psalm 27 (v5) came alive in some of the darkest moments..
"For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling".
Strange wording by today's standards, but in those forsaken moments, when time stood still, monitors bleeped, the pain seemed unending and visitors looked on helplessly - there were arms wrapped around me. Not overpowering, but there. When you're that low, exposed and lonely, the peaceful loving arms of God are the sweetest place to be.
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ReplyDeleteBless you Peter. You are dearly loved and a testament to great courage and faith. What a privilege it has been for us to look on, even helplessly, and be reminded of not only how frightening and risky it is to be alive and how vulnerable it makes us when we love others, but also be inspired to lift our heads, believe and to overcome.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your wonderful blog,
Jonathan and The Girls x
Amazing X
ReplyDeleteBrilliant - and so good to have those warm arms to hold you safe. Don't stray far from them when you feel strong and normal and seemingly able to run life on your own: for that's the danger area.
ReplyDeleteBless you all four - and keep writing - it is a gift.
Much love
Robert
:-) Joe & Suzie
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