Nausea

Getting to know how your body works again, as an adult, is a very strange thing.
Its makes me feel quite vulnerable/cautious inhabiting a body that I used to know so well, yet now has needs and patterns that I’m having to learn from scratch.
Learning what is “out of bounds” food-wise is a bit of a minefield and guestimating how much one should eat for each mini-meal, without over-doing it could be anxious-making if I let it. And sometimes I do.

Nausea has been a feature of the last few days and trying to decipher it has been a bit of a challenge. Does it come from hunger, eating the wrong things or is it the system re-working itself to accept the relatively undigested food exiting my new stomach shortly after meals? I don’t know, but this next phase of recovery will involve finding out.

What I do know so far is that double choc chip mega big chocolate cookies are not the way forward, or perhaps a fast-track to the bathroom. I hope the list of forbidden foods will be a short one.

I’m not used to taking things this slowly. There have been some very frustrating moments as the whole “eating” thing has over-shadowed the good progress my body is making on the wound-healing front.

But Claudia is lovingly encouraging me to remain mentally strong during this the next few months. That some people become over-bored or even depressed during recovery after major surgery wouldn’t be surprising. I’d value prayers to keep my mind on the bright side and to be attentive to what God might be preparing for me as recovery continues.